Back and Forth

Adding to yesterday's post on the evil voice, I can go weeks, even a few months, and feel that I am doing okay and I am in status quo of a semi-healthy state. Then I go over to the other side and think my body has let me down and I have some new ailment. Or an ailment has decided to act up again.

Its just unfair. Seriously.

But I digress. I felt well for about a week. By well, I mean sort of normal. Then we came home and my back started killing me. And my knee hurts. And my neck hurts. Then I am sure next week at least for a few days, I will feel fine.

The hard part is the balancing. Every day I wake up optimistic and then I do something like try to move, or get up to head for the bathroom. Some days I can manage the basics without saying 'ooch, ouch' constantly. Some days, people start to look at me funny when I start talking to myself 'ooch, ouch, ooch, ouch, ooch, ouch....'  You get it.

So some days its good. Some days its not. I never know. I can have big plans for the day and then my body says 'no you aren't going anywhere'. I can't count the number of times I have changed plans simply because I can't go anywhere.

Back and forth. Every day. Its a crap shoot. Back and forth.

Good News/Bad News

So the good news is that heart disease is becoming less of a problem for many Americans and the death rate is down. But the bad news is that cancer is beginning to take over as the leading cause of death of Americans. It is already the leading cause of death for Asians and Pacific Islanders.

Well whoop de do. Does that make me any less likely to die of heart disease or cancer? Not really.