The Changing Focus of Cancer

For 25 years, cancer had a changing focus in my life. Sometimes it would leap back up into the front of my stress levels. The changing levels were mostly due to my health. It used to be pretty good but did have its ups and downs. But I did used to be pretty healthy with cancer staying fairly far into the back of my brain.

I was mostly on an even keel. I say 'mostly' because who can say they are continually positive all the time. After a quarter century of a cancer focus in my life when went from all encompassing to moving to the back of my brain, things changed.

Nearly nine years ago, that all changed when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Cancer came front and center in my life. Actually it came roaring back into the front and center of my life. One thing else I did know at the time was that I had already gotten through cancer once before so I could be slightly optimistic that I could do it again. A tiny sliver of positive things.

But for the next six years probably it was still important to me and a topic of frequent blog posts. But then in 2013 when I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia, cancer has slipped in importance in my life, but still lingers.... After two cancers, its never going to go away.

Now I have a split focus in my life, sort of evenly divided between:

• breast cancer
• thyroid cancer
• rheumatoid arthritis
• fibromyalgia
• all the related side effects from all the related treatments

What this means is that cancer is not completely a giant sucking black hole in my life. This is a slightly 'healthier' balance. Not that I am healthy but maybe a saner balance.

I think anyone when they are diagnosed with cancer, it takes over their life, until something changes in their life and they get distracted. So maybe I have been a bit distracted from the giant cancer focus in my life. But it will never go away. But it is allowing me a bit more of sanity. Who doesn't need sanity?

That awareness thing

Am I the only one on the planet who thinks we do not need more awareness of different cancer types? I mean yes there are some really obscure ones that need awareness and more treatment as well as metastatic cancer definitely needs more options. But really, do we really need an unending calendar of fashion shows, races, walks, and other events?

I may be cynical but I think most of us are too aware of cancer these days. Or is it just me because it has been part of my life for so long?

Uncertainty

I have been watching the ABC Family show 'Chasing Life' since last summer. I don't really understand how they planned the season because it started maybe in June and ran for most of the summer and since then they had an episode in December and one in January. Finally, season one is over, I think. I did a search and learned that it had been renewed for a second season. Maybe that's why they held off on the last episodes of season one until they knew if they would have a second season or not.

Anyway, I watched the last episode night where I learned (spoiler alert) that April, the main character, is in remission with a 60% chance of the disease returning. See, with cancer there are no guarantees. It made me think.

If you have cancer, you analyze the statistics on recurrence and death until you are blue in the face. Then you discuss and dissect them with anyone you can. You tell yourself you are in the 'good' part of the percentages as in 'with a 70% fatality rate in the first five years'. You are clearly part of the 30% because you couldn't possibly be part of the 70%.

The only thing with cancer is that you know there are no guarantees. You can tell yourself anything you want but deep down you know the only thing that is certain is the 'uncertainty' of a cancer diagnosis.

Lung Cancer Doesnt Get Its Fair Share

Lung cancer affects half as many women as breast cancer does each year but kills twice as many women. And its five year survival rate is 16% or for Stage IV, 4%. To put it another way:

"An indiscriminate killer, lung cancer takes more lives annually than breast, prostate, colon and pancreatic cancers combined. The disease has not generally received the public attention or research dollars in proportion to its devastating lethality. Lung cancer receives just $1,442 in federal research funds per death, compared with $26,398 for breast cancer and $13,419 for prostate cancer according to an NIH study. Factor in private donations, and the funding gap becomes even more staggering."

Lung cancer is not the only one that is indiscriminate. All cancers are indiscriminate but its time that other cancers get the notice that go to the headline cancers - breast, pancreatic, and prostate. I call them headline cancers because they grab the headlines. But there are millions of Americans dealing with a lifetime in cancerland which is not the same as life without cancer.

November is lung cancer month. Did you even know that? You couldn't miss the pinkification of October..... Lung cancer, and other non-headline cancers, need their fair share of funding, research, and awareness.